I decided to create this series for Life Soundtrack since I used to relate my lovelife with songs. I still do but now, I write my own. ❤ Anyways, The Ex-Files will be posted by episodes but they are not arranged chronologically. The first one is right here, by the way. I just thought others can relate to these songs. 🙂
On this episode, let’s rewind and go back to the time I found out that I’ve been cheated on. Okay, actually, it was not really cheating because he’s not my boyfriend officially. That means he was not also my ex officially. Say what? But we considered each other exes because it almost felt like we were a couple except no one knew what was going on between us but us. That was hint #1. Why couldn’t we just reveal to other people how we were in-love with each other?
Between the Lines by Sara Bareilles
Time to tell me the truth
To burden your mouth for what you say
No pieces of paper in the way
Cause I can’t continue pretending to choose
The opposite sides on which we fall
The loving you laters if at all
No right minds could wrong be this many times
hint #2 He said he loved me but I was waiting for one year for him to ask me if I could be his girlfriend… Status: It’s Complicated.
My memory is cruel
I’m queen of attention to details
Defending intentions if he fails
Until now, he told me her name
It sounded familiar in a way
I could have sworn I’d heard him say it ten thousand times
If only I had been listening
hint #3 I knew he was close to two of my classmates and I also knew they like him. In my mind, I thought I was lucky because I was the one he liked (and loved) but why did he do things to them which were kinda sweet? I knew he was really like that so I thought that’s normal. Or convincing myself that it’s normal.
I thought I thought I was ready to bleed
That we’d move from the shadows on the wall
And stand in the center of it all
Too late two choices to stay or to leave
Mine was so easy to uncover
He’d already left with the other
So I’ve learned to listen through silence
The moment of truth. He was also in-love with those other two girls. That hurt so much. “Will he choose me? Will I stay or leave?”
I tell myself all the words he surely meant to say
I’ll talk until the conversation doesn’t stay on
Wait for me I’m almost ready
When he meant let go
Leave unsaid unspoken
Eyes wide shut unopened
You and me
Always between the lines
Between the lines
“You and Me”. It’s never gonna happen. It was only between the lines.
>>>This is my response to Writing 101, Day Twelve: (Virtual) Dark Clouds on the Horizon and Day Thirteen: Serial Killer II.