I’m in a long-distance relationship for four years. If you’re wondering how everything began, then you should read this. Just to give you a summary though, my boyfriend and I were on-line friends for eight years before we became a couple. I’ve seen his pictures on Yahoo! Messenger and Friendster and I had a crush on him. Haha.
One day of Summer 2010, we had a chat on Facebook and since then we became closer as friends. We came from bad relationships so we could totally relate with each other in our telephone conversations but I also think we were starting to fall in-love! *cheesy feels*
When I first saw him on video call, I saw fireworks. Haha. But I was afraid to show him my face. I was not confident at all. Maybe he would stop talking to me if he sees me. So, I just decided to film a video instead of having him see me live on video call. That way I wouldn’t see his reaction. I was singing Terrified by Katharine McPhee with my guitar.
You by the light is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong you’re the thing that’s right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side
You set it again, my heart’s in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I’m at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark,
And I’m in love and I’m terrified.
For the first time and the last time
In my only life.
I didn’t actually think of the meaning of the song before I recorded it but afterwards, I realized how terrified I was in real life:
- Terrified to fall in-love again after a failed relationship.
- Terrified to fall in-love with someone on the other side of the planet whom I’ve never met in person before.
- Terrified that he won’t like me after seeing the video. 😛
Then after he watched it, he sent me some positive messages. He liked my voice and smile and that’s the first time he told me he loves me. I wonder if he remembers. But that’s the story.
Now, the only thing I’m terrified of is not being with him next year. Distance sucks!
Have you ever serenade someone before? Please share!